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Saturday, June 18th, 2016
1:39 pm
The three most recent Nightscape Press books
The three most recent books we have published at Nightscape Press are DAYS OF RAIN by Ray Wallace, the first of three novellas, DARKLING INCIDENCE: Obscure Reflections by K.M. Tonso, a collection of 16 short stories, and RELEASE by Amelia Mangan, her first novel.

They are all fantastic and I'd be honored if you read them and let me know what you think (here and a review at Amazon/Goodreads would be amazing).  All of our titles are available at Amazon in both Kindle form and trade paperback.  If you're a Kindle Unlimited subscriber, all our titles are available for free.

Wednesday, May 11th, 2016
8:01 pm
It's been so long since I last logged in that I didn't remember all my credentials. Those are the fun times. I wonder when the last time I posted was. I'm not good at blogging, either. *sigh* But having a place to move the thoughts so they aren't just swirling around in my head is probably a good idea! Will I actually resolve that? Stay tuned!
Saturday, June 27th, 2015
9:01 pm
Day 1,000
The reason this blog post is titled "Day 1,000" is because that is how many days I have had a headache, in a row. Not the same headache, thankfully. But each and every day of the past 1,000 days, I have had at least one headache (I go through cycles of waking up with a headache daily and then occasionally having at least one other throughout the day - every now and then I don't wake up with a headache, but that is rare). Some of you know, some of you do not, but I had four seizures back in late September of 2012. (Never had had them before. Thankfully haven't had any since.) The last thing I remember is the wee hours of the morning Thursday going into Friday. And then, the next thing I remember is waking up in the hospital on Saturday, which was October 1st. Every day since then, I've had daily headaches. And on top of that, they are migraines. Every day. It feels like a steel rod from the front of my head to the back of my head just right of center. Sometimes I get auras. Sometimes they're unbearable. Sometimes they're tolerable and don't affect my day too much. But collectively, they are exhausting. I'll have the occasional tension headache still as well (a tight band at the base of my skull/top of my neck). (The ultimate "cause" of my seizures was just determined to be I had run myself down to the point of exhaustion and my body/brain said, "Enough!" No tumors. No physical reason has shown up on any of the multitude of tests I had at the time and since from three different neurologists. The second one I saw told me she thinks the additional electrical impulses of the seizures "triggered" something that is causing the headaches, but have never gotten a clear-cut explanation beyond that.) I've tried various preventative medicine regimens, to no effect, and I have medicines for when they happen, which takes care of them more times than not. But I keep having them every. single. day. Granted, by my own admission, I haven't been back to the neurologist in a couple months and did not try all treatment options that the most recent one had on her "list," but to be honest, I kind of got to a point where I was fed up with feeling like I was not getting anywhere. I know it is not going to change on its own, but after CranioSacral massages and a number of medicines that are not effective as preventatives, it's been rather discouraging. I'm thankful that I don't have a tumor. I'm thankful that I don't have a worse medical condition, but I am frustrated that my quality of life is being affected by this. Most days, I would rate my level of pain around a 4 out of a 10-point scale. But the days where I have a headache that is around a 7 out of 10, those are harder to take. Thankfully, those don't happen all that often. I think I'm back to a point now where I'm ready to set up an appointment and see what's next on the "list" to see if I can get some relief. It's just been hard trying things and having them not work. It gets to be tiring and discouraging hoping that the next thing will be "it," and having it not be the case. But, as I said, it's not going to change with doing nothing, unfortunately. Wish me luck that the cycle is broken soon. I would love to have a day without a headache!

[Sorry if this is jumbled... started writing and this is what came out {cross-posted from my blog jensroundcorner.blogspot.com}]
Wednesday, May 20th, 2015
4:05 pm
Hello! xoxo
Ah, my poor, neglected LJ. You've been around in good times and in bad. Always there. Always waiting for words to be added to your virtual pages. I've been a horrible journal keeper. It's never been my strong suit. But still, you stay, unbroken, unchanging*, always here for me.

(* yeah, so LJ's changed a lot over the years. Can't really say unchanging and have it be accurate, but it was the word that popped into my head)

I love how many of the authors I admire I am finding in these latter days. I should really work harder to come around more often!
Saturday, November 15th, 2014
9:38 pm
Judy Pancoast / The House On Christmas Street 2014 / Official Audio
Please watch and spread the word about this great song -- help make it a Christmas classic!
Sunday, November 2nd, 2014
1:59 am
Three minutes till one o'clock...again
Oh daylight saving time... you're so weird! Even though we've been in an area that "observes" daylight saving(s?) for eight years now, it still is a bit baffling and feels so foreign! And since my brain is in super writing mode from NaNo, -of course- had a story idea related to daylight saving time... which if I were to start on it now, would be three working stories. bouncing back and forth between the two should keep things fresh enough and will hopefully hellp for if/when I get stuck on one, but need to keep it at just the two for the sake of not tryign to keep track of too many things.

words flowed fairly nicely since writing this evening even though I had hoped to get some writing done earlier than when I did... but getting the words out is most important, not when it happened.

getting a bit tired so since I exceeded the goal I set for myself (having two day's worth of words [3334] on "day one" [since I started at midnight last night), think I'll call it a night for now.

MM: 2724
Faded: 995
12:06 am
NaNoWriMo Day 1 ("That's a wrap!")
Quick update to the wordcount --

Faded: 995
MM: 1777

for a total of 2772 for the first full day. Will be writing more before calling it a night, but wanted to document this.

(And Jacob (13) wrote 1625 words today! Super proud of him. He's doing the Young Writer's Program and has set a goal of 25,000 -- and he's definitely on his way to achieving that at this pace. Really hope we can keep him to keep at it!)
Saturday, November 1st, 2014
3:32 pm
NaNoWriMo '14 Day 1 (session 2!)
Going to keep this somewhat short so that any creativity or bleeding of words will be dedicated to my stories, but wanted to make a quick update. Attempting NaNoWriMo (www.nanowrimo.org) again this year. I have a goal of one day winning; we'll see if this year is that year!

Two stories in progress so far. Malville Malcontents (working title) will be an urban fantasy work and Faded is going to be a horror/thriller/suspense.

MM: 1577
Faded: 343
Monday, October 14th, 2013
1:48 am
"Is there anybody out there"
So here it is... 1:43 in the morning after having a week off (kiddos were out for fall break... Bob and I still worked off and on during the week, but we were on vacation.. and any time away from home is nice!! plus we did lots of fun and unusual things)... Anyway... the point of me starting this post is getting convoluted already -- sorry for that!

Back to having a lot of trouble sleeping. If I could structure my schedule to where I went to sleep between three and four and got up roughly 10ish, I would probably do okay... but having kiddos who have to be up and going in the six o'clock hour on school days makes that rather difficult...

...and as per usual here lately, that is about all my brain wants to allow me to share. If there is anyone out there reading this, I hope you are well!

Current Mood: tired but not tired enough to sleep
Thursday, August 1st, 2013
11:58 am
Times gone by
It's interesting to reach a point in life where on the one hand, it feels as though the past is being revisited. But on the other hand, you are experiencing things from a (at least hopefully) somewhat wiser position. Feeling damaged lately. This is not a new feeling -- but rather, I'm experiencing it in a different way. Seeing things, I wouldn't necessarily say "more clearly," but I guess just new/more/difference aspects of the feeling than I have realized in the past.

What is LJ for if not for cryptic posting? Especially these days since it seems as though I have to second guess and doubt and refrain and censor other places where I can "vent"

Current Mood: gloomy
Sunday, December 30th, 2012
4:32 am
As I sit here at 4:29 in the morning, I notice an email letting me know about a (spam) comment on a post that I had made many moons ago (okay, more like probably 4 years ago) where I was talking about not being able to sleep at 4:24 a.m. Amazing how so many things have not changed, but so many others have... may have to start journaling here again some day... or blog more often... or write by some other means. so many thoughts, so little time! interested to see what 2013 holds... just hope there are more good occurrences than bad, for myself and for all in my life!

Current Mood: pensive
Tuesday, September 6th, 2011
9:07 pm
Go buy my husband's book, Shining in Crimson!
Kindle version of my husband's novel, Shining in Crimson, is live!! Only $0.99!! Paperback and hardback are available October 2nd! The link to the Kindle version: Shining in Crimson Kindle version . Links to pre-order paperback/hardback: Shining in Crimson blog
Tuesday, July 26th, 2011
11:19 pm
Book Giveaway
Bob has a contest up to win a copy of his book! Go here and register between now and October 2nd, and you could win!!! Or go to the blog and pre-order to make sure you get your copy!!
Wednesday, July 20th, 2011
4:51 pm
So, just for the fun of it, I'm going to try to start posting periodically! Exciting news! My husband, Bob, is having a novella published in , this upcoming anthology! It's called "Not in the Brochure" a collection of "disappointing apocalypse" stories. Super excited and super proud of him. Will be a great deal all the way around. The anthology seems to get a good deal of promotion thusfar. Will be HUGE for helping get exposure especially for his upcoming book, Shining in Crimson!

So, definitely exciting times ahead. Meanwhile, I'm (still) working two transcription jobs, which is going mostly well. But as I write this... 800,000 distractions, as per usual. Will try to post again soon! (Let's see how many days it is before I actually do!!) Take care all!

Current Mood: interrupted!!
Monday, July 12th, 2010
9:58 pm
So.... it's my birthday..... i'm 30 now.... it is a quite bizarre feeling... i certainly don't feel 30... what does 30 really feel like? I wonder if by the end of the year I will ascertain what 30 exactly feels like... maybe not... has been a pretty good day... couple things could have been a bit different, but all in all, a good day... Bob made me an awesome dinner (cottage pie & salad) & i'm about to have cake (butter pecan) and ice cream.. yum! =) this is the first time in his life he has ever baked a cake.. i feel special =) anyway... will make another post maybe again some day... take care!

Current Mood: hopeful
Sunday, April 25th, 2010
8:22 pm
so, it's been a little while since i last posted here... and life is glaringly different from my last post.. some "venting therapy" in the form of making a post to "update" might come in handy at some point.. not that anyone really reads this anyway... but having an outlet to extract ideas from my head (since i have no pensieve) might come in handy. but things are good. in some ways, better than they've been in a long, long time (possibly better than ever).... so, definitely a plus on that... anyway.. hope anyone who might read this is doing well!
Tuesday, January 12th, 2010
8:47 pm
I very much feel a vast and varied range of emotions at the moment... hope, confusion, stress, regret, wonder, and on, and on. So far, 2010 has not been bad.. i realize we're only 12 days in, and there's a wealth of days to come, and the year will ultimately be measured as a collective, not individual days, but i still have hope for it being a good year. the reflection on 2009 still seems as though it wasn't the greatest of years... but hopefully it will be used to make sure this one is better.

i miss... a lot of things... what's the quote, "of all the things i miss, i miss my mind the most" or something of the sort? amusing... not 100% accurate, but there are days where i certainly feel that i've lost my mind... not so much in the first 12 of this new year... thankfully... i have a pretty clear mind currently... even though the future is very grey and unshaped as of yet, in my head tonight, i feel mostly positive.... it is a cycle, or a roller coaster... or something... but i have hope and am trying to be patient and just do the best that i can... and really, at the end of the day, if you operate under those two things, i think it can be counted as a positive/success.

spring semester starts in less than two days... it will be interesting to see how that fits into the mix... for one company, we are at a slow period... for the other, it is the busiest it has been since the company formed. so, i guess itis a blessing that it isn't either crazy with both or dead with both... the past couple days have been odd... i've gotten a lot done and been productive in a lot of ways, but also, not done all that i would have liked to... so i don't know...

there's a lot i want to say, but the thoughts aren't fully formed yet... i had a very eye-opening weekend... things that i had thought were the case turn out not to be... and decisions that i had made were revealed to me to have been done in haste, so i have to re-evaluate... but i'm glad for that... i very much have a renewed sense of hope and optimism for what life will bring/become... so, hopefully it won't let me down.. hehe... or rather, hopefully i won't screw it up.... anyway... think that's it for now

Current Mood: curious
Thursday, December 31st, 2009
12:15 am
1999 - 2009
wow. it is very difficult to not draw a lot of parallels between NYE 1999 and NYE 2009. Obviously some things are different... but in a lot of ways, it feels very similar... but I am determined for 2010 to be a great year... hopefully the universe will not conspire too much against me, and I will be able to make that happen... There are definitely some milestones that will be reached this year... not all good, but i guess events in the grand scheme of things are neutral until they occur and you make what you can of them... anyway... been listening to a lot of music here lately, not that that is a new thing, really.. but there have been many days where a song just plays on repeat in my head...

Sad to feel the way I do.. Not where i would have pictured life going, but I do see good times ahead... for the most part, life carries on as it was... new challenges... new things to deal with... and the potential for great things... just a matter of being able to make the right choices and see opportunities where they exist.

I hope that everyone's year ends well, and that 2010 is a year filled with as much good as possible!

Current Mood: mixed
Thursday, December 3rd, 2009
3:48 pm
"a coma might feel better than this"
what a day today has been.. but to expand upon that, what a month this has been.. life is at an awkward, hurtful place... things could be worse, but they could certainly be better... hopefully they'll be looking up soon. hope and strength and determination are about all i have right now & hoping they'll get me through... i know things will get better, just a matter of when and in what form. "it's the most wonderful time of the year"... yeah, not so much this year...... oh christmas songs, how you taunt me right now...
Saturday, October 31st, 2009
8:41 am
can't believe that Nanowrimo 2009 begins tonight... and can't believe how incredibly complicated and difficult things are seeming at the moment... life is a strange and funny thing..... "life... don't talk to me about life..." good luck all you Nano'ers out there.... see you at 12:00:01 for the fun and madness that will be our next 30 days!!
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