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The three most recent Nightscape Press books

The three most recent books we have published at Nightscape Press are DAYS OF RAIN by Ray Wallace, the first of three novellas, DARKLING INCIDENCE: Obscure Reflections by K.M. Tonso, a collection of 16 short stories, and RELEASE by Amelia Mangan, her first novel.

They are all fantastic and I'd be honored if you read them and let me know what you think (here and a review at Amazon/Goodreads would be amazing).  All of our titles are available at Amazon in both Kindle form and trade paperback.  If you're a Kindle Unlimited subscriber, all our titles are available for free.

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It's been so long since I last logged in that I didn't remember all my credentials. Those are the fun times. I wonder when the last time I posted was. I'm not good at blogging, either. *sigh* But having a place to move the thoughts so they aren't just swirling around in my head is probably a good idea! Will I actually resolve that? Stay tuned!
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Day 1,000

The reason this blog post is titled "Day 1,000" is because that is how many days I have had a headache, in a row. Not the same headache, thankfully. But each and every day of the past 1,000 days, I have had at least one headache (I go through cycles of waking up with a headache daily and then occasionally having at least one other throughout the day - every now and then I don't wake up with a headache, but that is rare). Some of you know, some of you do not, but I had four seizures back in late September of 2012. (Never had had them before. Thankfully haven't had any since.) The last thing I remember is the wee hours of the morning Thursday going into Friday. And then, the next thing I remember is waking up in the hospital on Saturday, which was October 1st. Every day since then, I've had daily headaches. And on top of that, they are migraines. Every day. It feels like a steel rod from the front of my head to the back of my head just right of center. Sometimes I get auras. Sometimes they're unbearable. Sometimes they're tolerable and don't affect my day too much. But collectively, they are exhausting. I'll have the occasional tension headache still as well (a tight band at the base of my skull/top of my neck). (The ultimate "cause" of my seizures was just determined to be I had run myself down to the point of exhaustion and my body/brain said, "Enough!" No tumors. No physical reason has shown up on any of the multitude of tests I had at the time and since from three different neurologists. The second one I saw told me she thinks the additional electrical impulses of the seizures "triggered" something that is causing the headaches, but have never gotten a clear-cut explanation beyond that.) I've tried various preventative medicine regimens, to no effect, and I have medicines for when they happen, which takes care of them more times than not. But I keep having them every. single. day. Granted, by my own admission, I haven't been back to the neurologist in a couple months and did not try all treatment options that the most recent one had on her "list," but to be honest, I kind of got to a point where I was fed up with feeling like I was not getting anywhere. I know it is not going to change on its own, but after CranioSacral massages and a number of medicines that are not effective as preventatives, it's been rather discouraging. I'm thankful that I don't have a tumor. I'm thankful that I don't have a worse medical condition, but I am frustrated that my quality of life is being affected by this. Most days, I would rate my level of pain around a 4 out of a 10-point scale. But the days where I have a headache that is around a 7 out of 10, those are harder to take. Thankfully, those don't happen all that often. I think I'm back to a point now where I'm ready to set up an appointment and see what's next on the "list" to see if I can get some relief. It's just been hard trying things and having them not work. It gets to be tiring and discouraging hoping that the next thing will be "it," and having it not be the case. But, as I said, it's not going to change with doing nothing, unfortunately. Wish me luck that the cycle is broken soon. I would love to have a day without a headache!

[Sorry if this is jumbled... started writing and this is what came out {cross-posted from my blog}]
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Hello! xoxo

Ah, my poor, neglected LJ. You've been around in good times and in bad. Always there. Always waiting for words to be added to your virtual pages. I've been a horrible journal keeper. It's never been my strong suit. But still, you stay, unbroken, unchanging*, always here for me.

(* yeah, so LJ's changed a lot over the years. Can't really say unchanging and have it be accurate, but it was the word that popped into my head)

I love how many of the authors I admire I am finding in these latter days. I should really work harder to come around more often!
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Three minutes till one o'clock...again

Oh daylight saving time... you're so weird! Even though we've been in an area that "observes" daylight saving(s?) for eight years now, it still is a bit baffling and feels so foreign! And since my brain is in super writing mode from NaNo, -of course- had a story idea related to daylight saving time... which if I were to start on it now, would be three working stories. bouncing back and forth between the two should keep things fresh enough and will hopefully hellp for if/when I get stuck on one, but need to keep it at just the two for the sake of not tryign to keep track of too many things.

words flowed fairly nicely since writing this evening even though I had hoped to get some writing done earlier than when I did... but getting the words out is most important, not when it happened.

getting a bit tired so since I exceeded the goal I set for myself (having two day's worth of words [3334] on "day one" [since I started at midnight last night), think I'll call it a night for now.

MM: 2724
Faded: 995
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NaNoWriMo Day 1 ("That's a wrap!")

Quick update to the wordcount --

Faded: 995
MM: 1777

for a total of 2772 for the first full day. Will be writing more before calling it a night, but wanted to document this.

(And Jacob (13) wrote 1625 words today! Super proud of him. He's doing the Young Writer's Program and has set a goal of 25,000 -- and he's definitely on his way to achieving that at this pace. Really hope we can keep him to keep at it!)
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NaNoWriMo '14 Day 1 (session 2!)

Going to keep this somewhat short so that any creativity or bleeding of words will be dedicated to my stories, but wanted to make a quick update. Attempting NaNoWriMo ( again this year. I have a goal of one day winning; we'll see if this year is that year!

Two stories in progress so far. Malville Malcontents (working title) will be an urban fantasy work and Faded is going to be a horror/thriller/suspense.

MM: 1577
Faded: 343
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"Is there anybody out there"

So here it is... 1:43 in the morning after having a week off (kiddos were out for fall break... Bob and I still worked off and on during the week, but we were on vacation.. and any time away from home is nice!! plus we did lots of fun and unusual things)... Anyway... the point of me starting this post is getting convoluted already -- sorry for that!

Back to having a lot of trouble sleeping. If I could structure my schedule to where I went to sleep between three and four and got up roughly 10ish, I would probably do okay... but having kiddos who have to be up and going in the six o'clock hour on school days makes that rather difficult...

...and as per usual here lately, that is about all my brain wants to allow me to share. If there is anyone out there reading this, I hope you are well!
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Times gone by

It's interesting to reach a point in life where on the one hand, it feels as though the past is being revisited. But on the other hand, you are experiencing things from a (at least hopefully) somewhat wiser position. Feeling damaged lately. This is not a new feeling -- but rather, I'm experiencing it in a different way. Seeing things, I wouldn't necessarily say "more clearly," but I guess just new/more/difference aspects of the feeling than I have realized in the past.

What is LJ for if not for cryptic posting? Especially these days since it seems as though I have to second guess and doubt and refrain and censor other places where I can "vent"
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